Life through Lens
hi evry 1
this is my blog, and this is me.One of the reasons i want a blog is because i want to jog down the happiness from my happiest moments andmaybe unhappy moments too, as a part of vivid experiences. And of course to share them with me friends. i knew of frens whom advert hurtful and bea k yan things onto their blogs and caused a lot of unhappiness. But this blog is different, it will not spark any bea k yan things tt destory frenships forever just because of differences tt does not even matter 2 years down the road. i hope frens can feedbac into my blogg, because i am person who is so full ofenergy and drive, sometimes i got carried away, so help me check myself.this blod is like a diary, and account of what happened. Maybe this blog would be the progulue of my book when i am successful.

Enough abt y am i gettin this blog, lets speak abt my first 18 years of my life in a nutshell. I got 2 parents who are really not average. No 1 can compete tt title with them. I really not want to talk abt their short comings. And i shall no let their i prenscence ruin my blog. Anyway the first 10 years of my life r really tramatic. i was fat, i was told tt i am stupid by my own mom evry wakin moment. In sch, i found it hard to socialize because of my size, frens jus bully me till when teachers come then act as if they were victims then i got punish in the end, jus like 1 of the looney tunes episodesand i was always duffy or syvester or tom, never was i the outsmarting 1. When i got home it is back to interacting with the walls, i got no siblings. once a while the cousins would visit, i was happy the 1st few visits but it turns out to be another series of looney tunes. i really got no frens. Mom was always comparing me withthem whatever i did was never good enough. And parents were always fightin for absolutely no reason, it is not cheating it is not no money but there is alway reasonto fight.

Untill i came to sgs. In sec 1 and 2 i was caught between being good son and havin a life.like all 13 years old. Back then frens in sgs it was havoc.And i can't do what my frens was doing because of my parents sayin no. At the same time i infatuated many gals one after the other, and all of them show me tt they are not interested in me at all. It was tough being dump again and again. i cried so many times. i gotta the point tt i belive nobody wants me. i was really really suckie i wanted to die... but i know i can't die. i can't die not because of my parents or any 1 for tt matter, but because there's a lot of thing i haven done and experience in this world.Although i got no real tangible experince of being the best and feelin good for once at tt point in time.. but i jus knew it i knew tt my life would be the true underdog story.Part of what i am happened to me because of super teens. though i have not followed their way dilligently but it really changed my life. people can say tt i am dreamer or even say tt i am delusional, but it will not be a dream nor a delusion as long as i work towards it. Sec 3 and 4 was much betta experience i found myself being accepted. i thought it was the best days of my life but i knew better days were to come.....

until last year then i found myself befrening 3 other ppl. u've guessed it. Alvin, kenny and wei jiang. i ll do an evaluation on them on some other parts of the blog. although the way we've met is through majong but it's not abt majong at all and we can go on for months without majong. untill the mid part of last year, then i had found out tt they were dreamers like me. and i am convinced ttmy path lies with them. At 17 we've realised tt money makin is very important, games and porn had no effect on us anymore. i belive tt money can by time to do what i want.and i want a lot of things. and i wanna be successful. In this day and age, money emcompasses around success, so without money 1 is no way near success.

i dun care whathappened to me in the past, and it is no excuse for whatever tt happens in the future, esp failure. From this moment on, i will work towards a successful career and have a full and enriched life. i dun care how am i borned and where am i borned and how am i brought up. there's is nothin nothin between me and the mountains. i chose not to break because i can. i am tough and i will grow strong. On my death bead, i'll answer to no 1 but myself and my own conscience. it doesn't matter what god is there and how he/shejudges me, all tt matters is tt i can't let myself down.

Let my life be my testimonial of me
8:03 PM

September 2004